What if you stopped healing & started living?
pov: you realize the meaning of life
Let’s get the elephant out the room right now, we all need to heal…
And to some extent, we want it, too.
Even when it’s a pain in the ass and you’re wondering why you came to this ghetto ass planet to begin with.
Even when it’s the same trigger you thought you got over last time that’s got you sitting in front of your telehealth therapist yet again today.
Even when the business is beating your ass & you know this is the dojo you chose for self actualization & to transcend fears & wounds that’ve inhibited your true expression in the past, but you still can’t quite remember the moment you became a masochist for money…
Healing is beautiful. It’s the stuff of life.
Making a conscious decision to pursue it was one of the best things I ever did.
& Yet still, earlier this year, there came a point in time where I realized that I was doing so much shadow work that I had BECOME my shadow self.
My healing journey became the most dominating part of my personality (& personality creates your personal reality, a la Dr. Joe Dispenza)..
I didn’t know how to connect w ppl over anything other than my dharma & the meaning of life or what Jupiter was doing …..
I was neglecting the physical for my internal, happily/begrudgingly cutting myself off from other life experiences because I wasn’t where I wanted to be yet, essentially settling for a small, sad existence..
Feeling like I couldn’t live a full life until I was fixed, healed, perfect & shiny again.
Who needs a man when you’ve got The Good Lord?
Humans are so complicated..why make more friends when you can just chat with your Spiritual Team?
Just wait until the Glow Up Spree is complete, then go sign up for that pottery class…
“symptoms of being so enlightened that one is no longer a part of society include sudden preference for breathable cotton wares, bralessness where there were once bras, newfound fascination with the breath, loss of appetite, loss of libido, loss of guilty pleasures, poor hygiene, boring personality, [and] access to spirit world/other dimensions."1
I was putting my life on hold until everything was exactly as I wanted it to be - until the 3d was aligning with my vision and I was happy again.
And then one day, my beautiful mother booked us a trip to Vegas during my birthday week.
And suddenly I had something else to live for other than food, my niece and my journaling practice.
I remembered life was about more than just sitting with my feelings & clearing my third eye chakra & fighting le (internal) resistánce.
I remembered it could also be about tulle and snakeskin leather & surprise vacations & new headboards and cute shoes for strutting your sexy single stuff down the streets of Sin City…
I went shopping for things that made me feel like me, & I felt so much joy from it that I remembered I had permission to live my life and feel beautiful and have nice things & have fun with fashion, and show up however I want to show up & do whatever I want to do, whenever I want to do it, really…
So trust me when I say I’m aesthetically driven.
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You see, the Paradox of Change (& Healing) =
it’s a constant in life
it’s not linear all the time & oscillates on a continuum/spectrum
it’s not the most effective when it comes from a place of brokenness/feeling like there’s something wrong w you
And the truth is, when all or most of your energy has been going to surviving & healing & getting well, the result is less or lower quality or simply less sustained energy & enthusiasm going towards creating your dream reality (the things you wanna heal for to begin with).
“When HAPPINESS is marketed as a FINITE DESTINATION to be reached and WELLNESS as a PRODUCT to be PURCHASED, what does HEALING MEAN?”2
I like to think that life can be about anything you want it to be, if you’re willing to take the pen & write the script.
As I always say, personal authority = being the author of your destiny…
No one is going to give you permission to live your life & fully own who you are..
Self IMG needs to be conceptualized internally & then expressed externally in order to truly matter (i.e. manifest into your physical reality)..
& Neither Life nor Death waits for anyone, so why do we wait for it?
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What happens when you stop waiting for life to happen to you & sit in the driver’s seat instead?
What happens when the Universe shows up to give you everything you asked for & finds you already having fun right where you are?
What happens when you consciously decide to seek out not just the good, true, & beautiful within the spiritual realm, but also strive to touch it & taste it during your time here on earth, starting now?
Don’t spend your whole life trying to get it together.
Be the person you wanna be, do the things they do, & stop waiting to live your life..
Don’t let fun & enjoying your life be an occasion-wear thing. Let it be your everyday look & feel.
Truth is, life is a lifelong journey, and you will constantly be transforming & evolving & editing & refining & expanding on who you are & what you want out of it & where you envision yourself being at any point in time…
Could you learn how to Be while still Being Under Construction?
Can the various versions & visions of yourself coexist, maybe even live in harmony?
What if there was a framework for “being yourself” and having fun while doing it?
For living life by design rather than default or defeat…
What if there was a way to magnetize your desires without marrying yourself to a lifetime of feeling guilty, faulty, foolish, or greedy?
A system of moving from Embracing → Embodying → Expressing your innermost divine Essence & Experiencing a whole new reality because of it?
I’ve made some missteps, and also hit some major milestones on my journey, and as always (aka few times a year), I’m sharing them with you…
What’s to come in the next few days is an invitation:
To play dress up, to walk into every room looking & feeling like the woman of your dreams, to move throughout life w an ease that can only be cultivated by living true to your nature, to surround yourself w beauty that feels divine & personal to you & to make your home a haven & to be mindful of the energy you surround yourself w, to do work you love in the way only you can do it. To leave your mark on the world, and live a remarkable existence. To fulfill your purpose of simply being & becoming you, and living life only as you were uniquely designed to..
To have fun becoming your highest, hottest self, and living a high flow, low fuss, total freedom lifestyle…
& to live a life that looks as good as it feels, and show up as your original, one-of-a-kind, limited edition self, no matter how good or bad life is lifein…
Stay tuned!
Nada Alic’s Bad Thoughts, as quoted by Melissa Broder
“I Think This Will Fix Me”, Melissa Broder, Harper’s Bazaar